Falling in love with a tiny human being and not knowing what the future holds is...the hardest thing ever...and I found myself eating & eating & eating. I consumed sugar more often than necessary too.
Not sleeping much at night due to his tummy issues meant no energy the next day to exercise, when exercising would have given me more energy...so I drank coffee, FULL of sugar, in order to have energy.
See the endless cycle?
I have managed to gain 20 pounds. 20 pounds on a 5'1 girl equals about 2.5 dress sizes. It's not pretty.
This is me before Josiah: (January 2012)
This is me 17 months later on Gotcha Day: (July 2013)
(chubby cheeks on the right hand side belong to me)
So there it is, the ugly truth. I have been very careful about my sugar intake for about a month now. And last night I said "hi" to the stupid treadmill again. I hate working out. I do not like putting on exercise clothing and getting my heart rate up purposely. I'm an outdoorsy girl...I like to play tennis, but I don't have anyone to play with me. I like to go hiking, but the closest hiking spot is an hour and a half away.
But I thought if I put myself out there, I may be more prone to actually say "hi" to my treadmill more than once every other month. I NEED to lose this weight.
I miss having energy. I miss feeling pretty. I have scoliosis and this extra weight makes my back hurt. Bigger boobs make my back hurt too... HA! Hey, just keeping it real and I'm pretty sure only girls read this blog.
Anyways, so this is one of the not-pretty-sides of my adoption journey. There's a few others which I may or may not share.
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ReplyDeleteMary,
ReplyDeleteI totally know what you mean about 20 lbs on a 5'1" girl...I gained a little more than that over the course of 2 years, right before I left the country. Nathan actually proposed to me at my heaviest...haha!
I'm not a big exercise fan either, but I kick started my weight loss with "the 30 Day Shred" by Jillian Michaels. Its fun and quick, and it totally kicks your butt! I did it while I was in Europe. I was also fed a very fresh, natural diet while I was there, so I lost about 8 pounds in two months.
Also, as soon as I changed my mentality from "losing weight" to being healthy, it was so much easier to get back to where I needed to be. Michael Pollen (author) totally changed my outlook on food. You should start with his quick read "Food Rules". Also check out 100daysofrealfood.com This lady also helped change my outlook on food, and life in general.
Hope this helps! You can borrow my copy of the 30 Day Shred, if you want to try it. :)
Thank you Ashlley! I would love to borrow it, just not sure how quickly I will get it read. Time isn't something I have a lot of.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the encouragement pretty girl!